Rejuvenation

Two months back I had a terrible weekend, lonely/depressed/sad/bored.... and I decided I have to take some action. Something to keep me busy so that I can forget my stressful work in the evenings and pass time on weekends. I enjoy painting but I am not as good as I want to be. I always wanted to learn painting formally but Indian parents usually never encourage such interests. Someone said 'Every talent needs training'... so I decided to take painting classes.

Thanks to Rima's push I actually registered for first available class at San Diego Art and Design center. Two weeks back I finished my Acrylic-I and now I am taking Acrylic-II. It is turning out to be hectic with work hours and all the travel I do.. still I am having some good time and hopefully it will turn out to be a good decision in future... its an expensive hobby!

Completed Paintings:
- Golder Summer
- War and Love

Emotions..

Why God did such an unfair thing with us women.... Emotions are so troubling that you can't think straight and cannot solve a simple problem easily

And at the same time men are least emotional and we are stuck with them:(

Btw.. I am planning to shut down this blog

P.s. I by mistake posted something bad here and removed it soon. If you read it before I removed you can hate me but that was just a venting out and then feel better.. Common I live all alone and going through not a very good phase of life. Everyone does that plz don't judge me!

How to entertain yourself....

I went for pedicure and manicure today. For the first time in US felt like an idiot as u didn't know the protocols but enjoyed..
Later read below link 'how to entertain yourself when bored'
http://www.ehow.com/i/#article_5086571

I guess I am already doing many thing out of the list....

Time is flying and so am I

Its my non-travel weekend and as always sat morning i am at Starbucks next to my house and sitting at same couch. Like the sameness of this routine:(

Life is going too fast and I am having tough time to give it any directions. Needless to say nothing is happening as I planned and wished for.. Nothing! Still thankful for what I have.

Last 4 weeks...
Florida trip was relaxing and fun. I almost got an iPad. Yes I returned it. This I am going to hear all my life for sure! I am perfect in ruining special moments:) our wedding anniversary. I got 3 cards and a florida souvenir enough to make me happy! Anyway.. No excitement on anniversary though we tried to be as happy as we can be. The special day was ordinary full of work no lunch time going home late and at last one friend called to wish(shocked that few people on earth do remember our anniversary) and thanks to good friends went out for dinner. Ofcourse without the other half(irony!)

Then came Yellowstone!!! Too good to digest. My all time expression: how can one place on earth be so beautiful, amazing and interesting! Every person on earth should go visit this place. This trip needs a separate blog. Overall met friends and had fun!

Last weekend was fun and relaxing trip to Pittsburgh. I flew all the way to attend a bachlorate party!!! Fun it was. Took first vacation at job just to sit at home and recall I have a life! I had to work Thursday and Wednesday night to have a peaceful break(suck!). Break was totally worth it. We are moving out of my all time favorite apartment in Pittsburgh. Not many people visited us in pit but it was the best apartment I ever stayed in. Will miss you 5562 Hobart street apt 518:)

And last but not the least this week company announced that my work division is closing and it's scary. Company might sell us, layoff or absorb us within other divisions.

Let's see ... Excitement and adventure never ends!!!

Right Hemisphere Dominance

I did this test to find out my left/right brain dominance. Interestingly true...I have:

Right Hemisphere Dominance

HOLISTIC. RANDOM. CONCRETE. INTUITIVE. NON VERBAL. FANTASY ORIENTED. If you have a Right Hemisphere Dominance, you process information from whole to parts: you don't pay attention to details but look instead at the big picture. You don't adapt well to fixed schedules or rules: you like to manage your own time and enjoy doing many things at the same time. You learn best with pictures, diagrams, charts, and videos, and are good at talking about your feelings and interpreting other people's emotions. Sometimes you may know that something is right and not know why: you just know it, and therefore you are great at seeing through lies or tricks. You are impulsive and very expressive, and probably are a dreamer. You are best at social activities and have a special quality for artistic endeavours such as music or creative activities.


Now I know why I have dificulty in few areas at work.. I am trying to find out if I can improve on my weaker side. Desparately need it:(

Runaway...

I want to runaway to a new place where I don't know anybody nobody knows me and start life all over again :) it sounds fun, challeging and scary!

This blog is turning into a emotional/personal blog??? Not good .. All because of iPhone app

Travel... Contant of my life

I have been travelling, moving, relocating almost all my life. As much as I enjoy the newness or change attached to it I have now started hating it. I am now bored of the constant change:)
I don't want to move!!! Wish I could be one of those who can think/do/plan everything as they want and not to worry about the move. Small things like finding a doctor also makes me think about my unstable life and finding another doctor at new place:).. Back in india I recall all army families do it but they are doing it for a great cause. What's my great cause??? Thinking thinking thinking... Nope ! .. no cause but I AM the cause :)

Anyway howsoever I hate it I


still know travel and move are good for you. You learn so much, know so much more and you make so many new friends. Just that you don't know how it feels to be in one place with same friends, family and relationships for many many years!

And yes how does it feel to not travel alone? I think it feels so good! I know few friends who've never trvelled anywhere ever alone. Ahhh my mom. Guess I am experiencing her share of independence:)

I am in flight right now and nothing else but this dejavu of alone travelling in flight made me write this post....

Being happy or making happy!

One should make others happy or be happy by making others happy ?

What if I want to be happy myself and making others happy makes me happy. However you can't make everyone happy:(

Learning!!!

Life is a never ending learning process. Every now and then I realize how few things I am doing today were so different for me sometime back and I felt that I am better at those now. And after few monthsor years I realize no no no ! I am better at it now and learned few key things about it recently. And how ignorant I was few years back.. And then the thought hits me that any moment what I think I know is really not enough and I am so ignorant:(

In this whole process of learning and realization, I start realizing that the person in front of me says as if he/she knows everything actually doesn't know everything but he/she thinks that he knows eveything. And that , right there is the bad person inside me smiling silently and not giving a damn to what he/she is telling me:( that's bad that's very very bad!

Anyway.. Not sure why I took this topic and started writing about it. Actually because I am sitting in a starbucks enjoying my chai latte and found an app by which I can write blogs using my phone. And before i thought of writting a blog i was thinking about something which is in my mind for last few days/weeks/months that how much I have learned about so many things in last 2-3 years!!!!

So much to do.. [Revisited]

2009 was an interesting year for me. Last year a part of me screwed up completely and a part of me was rejuvenated... I was free most of the year. I spent as much time as I can on things I wanted to do. But I am lazy:). Looking back at the list, in some way, I covered half of the list.

- I want to travel the whole world
---- I tried to visit one place every month. Not all over the world but small places nearby

- I want to do charity work and social work. The most satisfying thing for me
---- I always wish doing it. In 2009 I was at the receiving end in terms of help/favors/charity. I realized if I am having so much problem in just getting my resume forwarded. Its impossible for people in real need to get any help. This is sad! We all have become so self oriented and talking/discussing/thinking about our own problems/happiness that helping is extinct now. (I can think of only 2 people I know doing social service...May be I don't know. People secretly do some social/charity work? why would they broadcast it... anyway just thinking...)

- I want to paint soooo much of various styles and categories
---- Tried but not much luck till now

- I want to sew so many things I have in my mind
---- I ended up with bedroom curtains and a DIY bath rug(a disaster!!!)

- I want to work in industry and be at a good position. Because I love to work
---- No comments

- I want to party regularly
---- This one was done fairly well considering the circumstances

- I want to have 5 kids or 3. I know its easy to say but no harm dreaming
---- No chance. I have realized my life is already quite adventurous. Cant add more to it! We are happy the way we are

- I want to live with my family for more time than I do
---- One thing I was able to do in 2009. Happy about it

- I want to live with Mama(granny-in-law) for more time
---- Yay!!! Did it. It was so much satisfying

- I want to get organized
---- Doing good. My house looks like home. Considering constant moving and shifting I am doing good

- I want to be much healthier
---- I am on the right track. Not yet there!

- I want to shop more often than now
---- hmm.. in 2010

- I want to read more books
---- Ohh I did. The only thing I did was going to library and reading something or the other.. I would add watching movies

I use "I" that doesn't mean I was alone. I should have used 'we' in various places, without Mr. Husband nothing is possible.

On second thoughts, I think the wish list was stupid and kiddish. Or it was not realistically planned. Lets work on 2010, wish list and resolutions!!!

A Very Happy New Year to all... May all your wishes come true and 2010 lets you follow your dreams and resolution forever!!!