One should make others happy or be happy by making others happy ?
What if I want to be happy myself and making others happy makes me happy. However you can't make everyone happy:(
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Learning!!!
Life is a never ending learning process. Every now and then I realize how few things I am doing today were so different for me sometime back and I felt that I am better at those now. And after few monthsor years I realize no no no ! I am better at it now and learned few key things about it recently. And how ignorant I was few years back.. And then the thought hits me that any moment what I think I know is really not enough and I am so ignorant:(
In this whole process of learning and realization, I start realizing that the person in front of me says as if he/she knows everything actually doesn't know everything but he/she thinks that he knows eveything. And that , right there is the bad person inside me smiling silently and not giving a damn to what he/she is telling me:( that's bad that's very very bad!
Anyway.. Not sure why I took this topic and started writing about it. Actually because I am sitting in a starbucks enjoying my chai latte and found an app by which I can write blogs using my phone. And before i thought of writting a blog i was thinking about something which is in my mind for last few days/weeks/months that how much I have learned about so many things in last 2-3 years!!!!
In this whole process of learning and realization, I start realizing that the person in front of me says as if he/she knows everything actually doesn't know everything but he/she thinks that he knows eveything. And that , right there is the bad person inside me smiling silently and not giving a damn to what he/she is telling me:( that's bad that's very very bad!
Anyway.. Not sure why I took this topic and started writing about it. Actually because I am sitting in a starbucks enjoying my chai latte and found an app by which I can write blogs using my phone. And before i thought of writting a blog i was thinking about something which is in my mind for last few days/weeks/months that how much I have learned about so many things in last 2-3 years!!!!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
So much to do.. [Revisited]
2009 was an interesting year for me. Last year a part of me screwed up completely and a part of me was rejuvenated... I was free most of the year. I spent as much time as I can on things I wanted to do. But I am lazy:). Looking back at the list, in some way, I covered half of the list.
- I want to travel the whole world
---- I tried to visit one place every month. Not all over the world but small places nearby
- I want to do charity work and social work. The most satisfying thing for me
---- I always wish doing it. In 2009 I was at the receiving end in terms of help/favors/charity. I realized if I am having so much problem in just getting my resume forwarded. Its impossible for people in real need to get any help. This is sad! We all have become so self oriented and talking/discussing/thinking about our own problems/happiness that helping is extinct now. (I can think of only 2 people I know doing social service...May be I don't know. People secretly do some social/charity work? why would they broadcast it... anyway just thinking...)
- I want to paint soooo much of various styles and categories
---- Tried but not much luck till now
- I want to sew so many things I have in my mind
---- I ended up with bedroom curtains and a DIY bath rug(a disaster!!!)
- I want to work in industry and be at a good position. Because I love to work
---- No comments
- I want to party regularly
---- This one was done fairly well considering the circumstances
- I want to have 5 kids or 3. I know its easy to say but no harm dreaming
---- No chance. I have realized my life is already quite adventurous. Cant add more to it! We are happy the way we are
- I want to live with my family for more time than I do
---- One thing I was able to do in 2009. Happy about it
- I want to live with Mama(granny-in-law) for more time
---- Yay!!! Did it. It was so much satisfying
- I want to get organized
---- Doing good. My house looks like home. Considering constant moving and shifting I am doing good
- I want to be much healthier
---- I am on the right track. Not yet there!
- I want to shop more often than now
---- hmm.. in 2010
- I want to read more books
---- Ohh I did. The only thing I did was going to library and reading something or the other.. I would add watching movies
I use "I" that doesn't mean I was alone. I should have used 'we' in various places, without Mr. Husband nothing is possible.
On second thoughts, I think the wish list was stupid and kiddish. Or it was not realistically planned. Lets work on 2010, wish list and resolutions!!!
A Very Happy New Year to all... May all your wishes come true and 2010 lets you follow your dreams and resolution forever!!!
- I want to travel the whole world
---- I tried to visit one place every month. Not all over the world but small places nearby
- I want to do charity work and social work. The most satisfying thing for me
---- I always wish doing it. In 2009 I was at the receiving end in terms of help/favors/charity. I realized if I am having so much problem in just getting my resume forwarded. Its impossible for people in real need to get any help. This is sad! We all have become so self oriented and talking/discussing/thinking about our own problems/happiness that helping is extinct now. (I can think of only 2 people I know doing social service...May be I don't know. People secretly do some social/charity work? why would they broadcast it... anyway just thinking...)
- I want to paint soooo much of various styles and categories
---- Tried but not much luck till now
- I want to sew so many things I have in my mind
---- I ended up with bedroom curtains and a DIY bath rug(a disaster!!!)
- I want to work in industry and be at a good position. Because I love to work
---- No comments
- I want to party regularly
---- This one was done fairly well considering the circumstances
- I want to have 5 kids or 3. I know its easy to say but no harm dreaming
---- No chance. I have realized my life is already quite adventurous. Cant add more to it! We are happy the way we are
- I want to live with my family for more time than I do
---- One thing I was able to do in 2009. Happy about it
- I want to live with Mama(granny-in-law) for more time
---- Yay!!! Did it. It was so much satisfying
- I want to get organized
---- Doing good. My house looks like home. Considering constant moving and shifting I am doing good
- I want to be much healthier
---- I am on the right track. Not yet there!
- I want to shop more often than now
---- hmm.. in 2010
- I want to read more books
---- Ohh I did. The only thing I did was going to library and reading something or the other.. I would add watching movies
I use "I" that doesn't mean I was alone. I should have used 'we' in various places, without Mr. Husband nothing is possible.
On second thoughts, I think the wish list was stupid and kiddish. Or it was not realistically planned. Lets work on 2010, wish list and resolutions!!!
A Very Happy New Year to all... May all your wishes come true and 2010 lets you follow your dreams and resolution forever!!!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Dream Interpretation
The Dream:
I am in the beauty parlor of Dehradun. The place I usually go and I visited this time too. My right hand is hurt and it’s been wrapped with bandage. I have a supporting string in my neck to hold the hand. Exactly like a broken bone. Just that the plaster is not there it’s bandaged. Something happened in the dream and someone temporarily wrapped my hand with whatever was available in that place. Can’t recall…
So I am in parlor getting something done...may be facial or threading don’t remember. After that is done... I am feeling sick and tired. The Owner lady asked if I would like to put mehandi on my head and I realize I won’t be able to do it in US. I say how much time it will take and they say few mins (very quick it will be). Like always I get convinced and agree to get it done. Then the girl (worker) is trying to put mehandi in my head. My hair is not looking good on my head and I am not liking the process of applying mehandi. In between she is doing something else and its taking time. I get irritated and I argue with them. I am stressed, tired and almost crying while arguing. I am saying “You always do that. You always make fool of me. Why do you make fool of me and do such things always? Cant you see I am hurt, tired and sick”. The owner and worker ladies looking at me with blank faces and no response. I go to the nearest wash basin and realize I need to clear my nose. I thought it’s because I am almost crying. But when I touch my nose to blow, I realize my nose is swollen to double size and I am having difficulty in holding it to blow my nose. It’s hard, huge (yellowish-red) and hurting. But I try hard holding my swollen nose and blow my nose very hard. I do it again and it’s difficult. While doing it I see worker lady looking at me. I assumed she is sympathetic but I am not sure. Owner is least interested and insensitive to anything. I feel nose little bit cleared but not completely. My nose still swollen and hard. I am breathing better. And then I wake up from my dream….and started my day.
Dream Dictionary Interpretation:
Hurt hand which is bandaged:
1. A hand that is open and ……………
5. Tied hands imply obstacles in attaining one's goals, while shaking hands imply either a new friend or a reunion with an old one.
6. Injured or bandaged hands indicates delays in attaining one's goals; look to other symbols in the dream to discern how these delays can be subverted, or, if they're inevitable, how best the time during the delays can be spent.
Girl:
Depending on the circumstances and other symbols, dreaming of a young girl is generally a positive omen. If you know her, and the other dream symbols support it, this is a portent of new opportunities; if she is a stranger, expect some surprising news. For a woman, a strange girl can represent her youthful side; for a man, she could represent his ideal lover.
Hair not good quality
1. An ancient symbol for strength and power. See BALD. Thick, luxuriant hair is a symbol for good health, and thin, wispy hair a sign of oncoming illness.
2. Brushing or combing the hair indicates finding the solution to a problem. Dreaming of someone pulling your hair implies betrayal.
Nose swollen and Nose blown
A symbol with many possible meanings, depending on the perception of the dreamer.
1. If you dream of a well-shaped and well-defined nose, something that has been obscured will suddenly become clear to you - "as plain as the nose on your face."
2. A long, thin, perhaps twitching nose is a warning that someone around you is "nosing" into your affairs - "sticking their nose where it doesn't belong."
3. A stuffed-up nose indicates obstacles and blockages, but blowing your nose signifies that obstacles will be overcome.
4.A nosebleed indicates financial trouble ahead, and also is a warning not to lend anyone any money right now - or they'll "bleed you dry."
5. Dreaming of a large or swollen nose, however, is a portent of prosperity.
Adding it all:
Injured or bandaged hands indicates delays in attaining one's goals; look to other symbols in the dream to discern how these delays can be subverted, or, if they're inevitable, how best the time during the delays can be spent. If you know the Girl, and the other dream symbols support it, this is a portent of new opportunities; if she is a stranger, expect some surprising news. For a woman, a strange girl can represent her youthful side. Hair, an ancient symbol for strength and power. Thin, wispy hair a sign of oncoming illness. Brushing or combing the hair indicates finding the solution to a problem. Dreaming of someone pulling your hair implies betrayal. A stuffed-up nose indicates obstacles and blockages, but blowing your nose signifies that obstacles will be overcome. Dreaming of a large or swollen nose, however, is a portent of prosperity.
Dream telling me:
- delays in attaining one's goals
- how these delays can be subverted
- how best the time during the delays can be spent
- new opportunities/surprising news
- my youthful side
- strength and power
- oncoming illness
- finding the solution to a problem
- surprising/betrayal
- obstacles and blockages
- obstacles will be overcome
- portent of prosperity.
How cool! (and how boring too)
Am I dreaming what I already know? or Am I reading what I want to read? After doing all this interpretation I thought I'll put it here.
In the morning, when I woke up from my dream I thought (recalling my bad nose in the dream):
‘We should be careful. It’s getting colder each day and swine flu is spreading’ ;)
I am in the beauty parlor of Dehradun. The place I usually go and I visited this time too. My right hand is hurt and it’s been wrapped with bandage. I have a supporting string in my neck to hold the hand. Exactly like a broken bone. Just that the plaster is not there it’s bandaged. Something happened in the dream and someone temporarily wrapped my hand with whatever was available in that place. Can’t recall…
So I am in parlor getting something done...may be facial or threading don’t remember. After that is done... I am feeling sick and tired. The Owner lady asked if I would like to put mehandi on my head and I realize I won’t be able to do it in US. I say how much time it will take and they say few mins (very quick it will be). Like always I get convinced and agree to get it done. Then the girl (worker) is trying to put mehandi in my head. My hair is not looking good on my head and I am not liking the process of applying mehandi. In between she is doing something else and its taking time. I get irritated and I argue with them. I am stressed, tired and almost crying while arguing. I am saying “You always do that. You always make fool of me. Why do you make fool of me and do such things always? Cant you see I am hurt, tired and sick”. The owner and worker ladies looking at me with blank faces and no response. I go to the nearest wash basin and realize I need to clear my nose. I thought it’s because I am almost crying. But when I touch my nose to blow, I realize my nose is swollen to double size and I am having difficulty in holding it to blow my nose. It’s hard, huge (yellowish-red) and hurting. But I try hard holding my swollen nose and blow my nose very hard. I do it again and it’s difficult. While doing it I see worker lady looking at me. I assumed she is sympathetic but I am not sure. Owner is least interested and insensitive to anything. I feel nose little bit cleared but not completely. My nose still swollen and hard. I am breathing better. And then I wake up from my dream….and started my day.
Dream Dictionary Interpretation:
Hurt hand which is bandaged:
1. A hand that is open and ……………
5. Tied hands imply obstacles in attaining one's goals, while shaking hands imply either a new friend or a reunion with an old one.
6. Injured or bandaged hands indicates delays in attaining one's goals; look to other symbols in the dream to discern how these delays can be subverted, or, if they're inevitable, how best the time during the delays can be spent.
Girl:
Depending on the circumstances and other symbols, dreaming of a young girl is generally a positive omen. If you know her, and the other dream symbols support it, this is a portent of new opportunities; if she is a stranger, expect some surprising news. For a woman, a strange girl can represent her youthful side; for a man, she could represent his ideal lover.
Hair not good quality
1. An ancient symbol for strength and power. See BALD. Thick, luxuriant hair is a symbol for good health, and thin, wispy hair a sign of oncoming illness.
2. Brushing or combing the hair indicates finding the solution to a problem. Dreaming of someone pulling your hair implies betrayal.
Nose swollen and Nose blown
A symbol with many possible meanings, depending on the perception of the dreamer.
1. If you dream of a well-shaped and well-defined nose, something that has been obscured will suddenly become clear to you - "as plain as the nose on your face."
2. A long, thin, perhaps twitching nose is a warning that someone around you is "nosing" into your affairs - "sticking their nose where it doesn't belong."
3. A stuffed-up nose indicates obstacles and blockages, but blowing your nose signifies that obstacles will be overcome.
4.A nosebleed indicates financial trouble ahead, and also is a warning not to lend anyone any money right now - or they'll "bleed you dry."
5. Dreaming of a large or swollen nose, however, is a portent of prosperity.
Adding it all:
Injured or bandaged hands indicates delays in attaining one's goals; look to other symbols in the dream to discern how these delays can be subverted, or, if they're inevitable, how best the time during the delays can be spent. If you know the Girl, and the other dream symbols support it, this is a portent of new opportunities; if she is a stranger, expect some surprising news. For a woman, a strange girl can represent her youthful side. Hair, an ancient symbol for strength and power. Thin, wispy hair a sign of oncoming illness. Brushing or combing the hair indicates finding the solution to a problem. Dreaming of someone pulling your hair implies betrayal. A stuffed-up nose indicates obstacles and blockages, but blowing your nose signifies that obstacles will be overcome. Dreaming of a large or swollen nose, however, is a portent of prosperity.
Dream telling me:
- delays in attaining one's goals
- how these delays can be subverted
- how best the time during the delays can be spent
- new opportunities/surprising news
- my youthful side
- strength and power
- oncoming illness
- finding the solution to a problem
- surprising/betrayal
- obstacles and blockages
- obstacles will be overcome
- portent of prosperity.
How cool! (and how boring too)
Am I dreaming what I already know? or Am I reading what I want to read? After doing all this interpretation I thought I'll put it here.
In the morning, when I woke up from my dream I thought (recalling my bad nose in the dream):
‘We should be careful. It’s getting colder each day and swine flu is spreading’ ;)
Saturday, June 20, 2009
So much to do ...
I have wonderful group of friends. I am so overwhelmed at this time with the thought of having so many great friends and being so lucky that I am restless:).. what to do what to do.. how am I so lucky. I started opening up my gmail and contacting few whom I have been trying to contact but ended up not doing anything. As usual... Some other time I will write why I say I have so many good(very good) friends.
So leaving the topic of so many good friends aside( still I am happy .. )
I am trying to do many things. And I really want to do so much that I end up doing nothing. Its usual and I know I am not alone. I know few who are worst than me and few who are really god at it and I admire them.
So when I say I want to do so much its two type of things...1) I want to do so much in life and 2)I want to do at this moment. Its not the long term and short term list.
Its just I want to do so much in this short life:)
- I want to travel the whole world
- I want to do charity work and social work. The most satisfying thing for me
- I want to paint soooo much of various styles and categories
- I want to sew so many things I have in my mind
- I want to work in industry and be at a good position. Because I love to work
- I want to party regularly
- I want to have 5 kids or 3. I know its easy to say but no harm dreaming
- I want to live with my family for more time than I do
- I want to live with Mama(granny-in-law) for more time
- I want to get organized
- I want to be much healthier
- I want to shop more often than now
- I want to read more books
and the list goes on...
So leaving the topic of so many good friends aside( still I am happy .. )
I am trying to do many things. And I really want to do so much that I end up doing nothing. Its usual and I know I am not alone. I know few who are worst than me and few who are really god at it and I admire them.
So when I say I want to do so much its two type of things...1) I want to do so much in life and 2)I want to do at this moment. Its not the long term and short term list.
Its just I want to do so much in this short life:)
- I want to travel the whole world
- I want to do charity work and social work. The most satisfying thing for me
- I want to paint soooo much of various styles and categories
- I want to sew so many things I have in my mind
- I want to work in industry and be at a good position. Because I love to work
- I want to party regularly
- I want to have 5 kids or 3. I know its easy to say but no harm dreaming
- I want to live with my family for more time than I do
- I want to live with Mama(granny-in-law) for more time
- I want to get organized
- I want to be much healthier
- I want to shop more often than now
- I want to read more books
and the list goes on...
Thanks and more...
Thanks for all the messages and supporting comments and emails.
I think I need to improve my writing style. I am realizing that what I want to write and what it ends up into is quite different. Also if you know me personally the meaning gets biases. At the same time I don't want to write based on the readers I know. So its getting tough. In a way good and bad. I am happy overall. I am writing and open to everybody's view point and learning!
So few clarifications for Soul searching is ON I thought of adding this in comment but then decided to create a new post. --
I am not sad but I am bored. Obviously at times everybody is sad but this one time it was more about how we get bored with same old routine. One can be bored even when he/she is working/studying/parenting anytime.. because you need change.
The time spent in CHO, people and overall life at CHO .. everything was fun. I have had a very mobile life and interesting life till now. Friends, acquaintances, relations with people of various ages, backgrounds, cultures, opinions. Once you leave school/coll and you are alone, the world is really-really big. Every new place I move, I miss the previous place... but life goes on...
My current life is pretty good in respect of difficult times(touch wood!). I had few very difficult times in fact worst than recent times and all happens for a reason. We all face ups and downs in life. With time everything gets better but its the restlessness of that moment which kills you. P3 rule, Patience-Positiveness-Perseverance, is the key and its tough.
The groups mentioned were all of same age group(not with kids). I have few very good girlfriends with two kids and still talking to them is fun and interesting. So age group and living style doesn't matter I think.
One should never 'try' to 'fit' in a group of people. It's going to be temporary. If you will mix and merge without any effort that's going to stay longer. Changing schools every 2 years and moving 1000 times, fitting/adjusting is all easy and possible.
So 'where do I fit' is not literally 'fit into group of people'. It's a little different. I am unable to explain clearly. Will be able to do that someday.. may be at 60.. hehe.
I think I need to improve my writing style. I am realizing that what I want to write and what it ends up into is quite different. Also if you know me personally the meaning gets biases. At the same time I don't want to write based on the readers I know. So its getting tough. In a way good and bad. I am happy overall. I am writing and open to everybody's view point and learning!
So few clarifications for Soul searching is ON I thought of adding this in comment but then decided to create a new post. --
I am not sad but I am bored. Obviously at times everybody is sad but this one time it was more about how we get bored with same old routine. One can be bored even when he/she is working/studying/parenting anytime.. because you need change.
The time spent in CHO, people and overall life at CHO .. everything was fun. I have had a very mobile life and interesting life till now. Friends, acquaintances, relations with people of various ages, backgrounds, cultures, opinions. Once you leave school/coll and you are alone, the world is really-really big. Every new place I move, I miss the previous place... but life goes on...
My current life is pretty good in respect of difficult times(touch wood!). I had few very difficult times in fact worst than recent times and all happens for a reason. We all face ups and downs in life. With time everything gets better but its the restlessness of that moment which kills you. P3 rule, Patience-Positiveness-Perseverance, is the key and its tough.
The groups mentioned were all of same age group(not with kids). I have few very good girlfriends with two kids and still talking to them is fun and interesting. So age group and living style doesn't matter I think.
One should never 'try' to 'fit' in a group of people. It's going to be temporary. If you will mix and merge without any effort that's going to stay longer. Changing schools every 2 years and moving 1000 times, fitting/adjusting is all easy and possible.
So 'where do I fit' is not literally 'fit into group of people'. It's a little different. I am unable to explain clearly. Will be able to do that someday.. may be at 60.. hehe.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Today....
I am not bored but angry..
I want to runaway like in the movie "Runaway Bride" :)
Another update: I am no more updating the movie update section in right panel of this blog. I have stopped watching latest movies these days. So no updates. I do watch movie on netflix though.
Happy living!!!
[Update] on Wed Jun 17th
I actually ran away. Phone was switched off and I went for walking and kept doing it for 2 hours. Beautiful houses, mansions infact, flowers and green grass... this place is beautiful in summer. Loving it!
I want to runaway like in the movie "Runaway Bride" :)
Another update: I am no more updating the movie update section in right panel of this blog. I have stopped watching latest movies these days. So no updates. I do watch movie on netflix though.
Happy living!!!
[Update] on Wed Jun 17th
I actually ran away. Phone was switched off and I went for walking and kept doing it for 2 hours. Beautiful houses, mansions infact, flowers and green grass... this place is beautiful in summer. Loving it!
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